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                             voices                                                       

        turbulent

                          hiss       

                                 forest

                     spirits

                              chant

                    distant            earthshine

        casts    across      spring showers         moon

   little     one        pisces        child          crests

         open       eyes     whisps    joyous    season

               here      opens      this    chance

          lotus   flower   dance swirls    rush   teeming

               voices   sing    rusk    laugh   shout

        if  you  wish  to dance  you must lift   your feet  off this ground ....... offf off up & away... put down that shovel...

    do not get sucked in seduced by candy coated mystery...

          this lying clown burps out love... that right hand stabs your sacred heart... this left hand knows not what... she says to me not to be seduced... & i say it to you... yet, now you are here... you waited in line from that eventful bog moonrise steams primordial soupkitchen...  so now your on this ride.... get ready to get off at your end... enjoy this ride.... you will get no other... its goinna happen... this opening closes with you... as far as is seen known etc.etc... anything else demands this sacrifice, my lucre lies elsewhere...                    

        whirl frenetic leaves dance

                  quiver frigid lash winds brush

           strokes choke release void displace

opening light closing these eyes    opens these those these this   each opening erupts joyous swirls darkness

           rhythmic orientation    contours   grasp feel senses this these cascade openings intimacies fall deeply within amidst these                    scintillate throbbing surge streams

    i see her sitting there with her lacy legs cross slowly, quietly, intently devouring an ice cream cone...                                              grip this face caress hands rubbing rustling frenzy feast shaking quivers

          this this now you this you right now

feel your body grasp your self this body rub your breast heal neck face this wound dance across against around your calf you now this you right here this one from all you cannot look away to that other

             persists there over that contour amidst this dwelling concentration confinement containment captivity carceration consumed feel your self stroke suck drink eat lick your self you this right now right here you......... eternity opens

                voices from deep in these woods call out for me to come follow them these choral vibrations emanate from correlative bodies these call out to me call out streams erupting amidst terranean dances

          it would seem that every past slowly fades it is rubbed out away through displacing insertions winding down along there branch out retreat assert alongside over across these things this presence deems itself that which is new

       current ongoing happening concern immersions closing in on that which can be will be must be

              black screen there for me

 abyss of night talk death sensuality fucking eating swallowing tasting this sun comes up drift black clouds grasp dance across throat decays lizard slivers vomits spits across lacerations sit waiting for this sun we sit you sit i sit waiting just me perhaps waiting waiting waiting for this sun mad weird impish perverse evil frightening molesting this sours distorted shattered twisted gaze penetrates amidst foul air fractured trust doubt even this morning sunrise

   this blasts out torn bleeding mesentary

              convulsions reverberating surges forth feels discordant explosion implodes containment field disciplinary orchestration effects across intimate happenings these voices thrust their force gripping me to succomb this inexorable rhythm these seductive caresses unfold these contours instantiate this through sheer presence there here all around everywhere  

                vortex of dissolution ... reach amidst free fall

      orientation... gray webs silk where once there was magic

  you          this one there here in this dwelling display mingle among decaying rotten excremental inexorability 

                destiny sings out her mysterious reverberating song this weaving waving dream speaks laughing as it is all falling right into place

              these others those others assertions rub themselves away out erased specifiable strand this shattered fabric remain here breathing yet alive here project out this dancing joyous horizon possibility this seductive enthralls web gyrates through interspersed [actuality]

                she speaks of that which comes this which must come to pass she tells me that the god will rise with the morning its power standing exhibited vindicated displayed commences its triumphal recurrence disciplination ceaseless eruption these snarl dogs vermin heat wells betwixt body perishes within shatters apart away alongside apprehension disperses hold grasp feeling away descend slide confusion wanders restlessness stands forever inexorably this case falls this sameness proliferates lashing your throat with each breath

      she gently rubs her lips with her fingers she casts her gaze over outside across this expanse her eyes flicker to this ground witnesses nothing

      this point in which a text breaks down... this point at which an aesthetic system displays this impossibility of a system... at this point... opening... life... ineffability of death...... tears, shock, horror, frenzy... joy...  laughter...         --= need to get more on monday as that is this recurrent day of menial reward growing it long it tends to do this anyway

     there shall be no manipulation this eruption must suffice amidst its implicative happening bestows this inexpressible event matrix body body body body body here there           attempt, if you will, execute take from this air across this ever so subtle gradient fractures pressurize dispersing fluid  

                         your most intimate concern this present sending amidst these those happenings

           can i even ask this

                                     his chief wife matra breach transfer passion play wisdom these senses plot mystery ingenious eaten by this fish magical spells goat three stringed implement constipation oblivion friends fragrant woods mass produced commodities mythos ritual praxis phusis two too many ways of saying this same thing rests from life sandy cliffs two dimensions rising erupting beyond this scintillating green shaking this systrum question is it even a question now that it-- .....  talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk .... wanting only this gift all want what wants now this dawning aquaous sending                  she whispers near ears aurora sending across this supple flux

                 her eyes smile exploding into many suns 

                                    humid air destroys cassette tapes... once upon a time there was a young beautiful maiden who lived nearby in what looked like from my speeding car a condo lot she was very very lovely her teeth gleeming with a new & improved shining gleemy gleemy shout her long thin fragile body clothed in these very stylish yet climatically inappropriate attires stands there beckons with her touch this gentle display of care intimate surrender she guides this large black dog attentive goddess dances joyous gyration there here

      i wish she would shit & piss in my face...

              if i am to be alone... let it be radicly alone...

         i can barely stay awake i wish to communicate this this feeling which seeks me

to succumb                                     renders me inoperative slowly                                  [inexorably]

      this heaviest weight comes back it comes back to me wells surges within this visceral space it explodes it takes hold of this all of it here it is it it is this surge all

              this word is death it is a word death it is there

          out there within here near uncertain  distance

          all other things                there

        around           without  purpose with "(out)" r

            egularity certainty inexorabiluity              inevitabiluity death remaining aware ineffable presence            standing with ominous expanse indeterminant seeming necessity

        holding staying sway there .,   greater force remaining [already forgetting this word] congruent that it persists as sameness change as such not there is no necesssity death 

                          it is just the case/]] jjust  just the way it is this way in fact it is        as it is this case

  is it at all?         

      is death necessary beckoning this one towards absence closing all each opening all dispersing casting about across shattering winds?

     what is it? or is this form of question irrelevant

                          if one asks which one

                  this has already given away this stone

     merely this defilement of exclusivity

             references may provide these tracks amidst this ceaseless voidal absurd dream infested seeping non-satiation this all this all

           this seizing hold of first    

  this dung beetle contemplative scarab displaying its precise nomenclatural happening

        each of us each one this one that one dies

                       ....  how fucking exciting billy jams heroin coated suppositories up his grandmother's ass poor boy

    sudden smell of clove infiltrates here in this receptical         i am going to let it kill itself in a way to allow it it to abate this threatening surge of hysterical scurrying huridly towards this anecdote provided to it through grace of willing surging fractural display                                        a necessary inevitable inexorable a priori occurence event happening

                                     demanding '"{nature}"'         life itself   our deaths my death yours his hers a death

                  if you understand that anymore if you ever did

             it is dead now it sets there i do not have the capacity to very verify that it is in fact dead but it looks dead i wonder if wine has an anesthetic effect on the physiology of this thing lying there with its face douced in this red alcoholic pussle puddle  

         if on the other hand it is not necessary

                    what would this latter imply

         some times it is a gift to be underestimated

  wanting that gift this persisting current here nowwriting does not allow me to forget this It

mmmmmmmm                           

this scribe sings out across expanse

                 over to these sheltered ones

            each lying hiding whirling amidst its tomb

        come out come out shine upon this space sing your song

                   murky it arose stench dripping shatter corpse

        come out falling apart speaking thus to these faithful:

                         rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrriver of Hapi, vital health, swells breasts, swing, belly bulge, vessels handheld bestow forth this libfinite opening you sit hold this read readation, inundation feeds this land from its watery abyss, gives birth to paradise, this upsurge betwixt blazen abandon

 

      Seth, Lord of the South, darkens eclipse, summer winds caress, mocks triumphant teeming falcon, once you were both brought together, always together, always apart, sprinkle your ewer waters upon this incipient infant god, this heir of eternity, Lord of the Two Lands, O, Egypt!

 

                      Send discordant calls, wicked devils, shake your systeven Its universal erases amidst this windrum, insurgency gathers, resist this Lord of millions of years, this eternity, these days, redemption, attack these gates, stands fast this god Horus defends keeps safe this realm pushing back shock onslaughts via all every directions, the center of this earth

 

           O evil one, Lord of Avaris, your Tanitic arm, and Sebek, guide your servant, this god Hemen, kiss gently Anta, your ravage, treasonous consort, rain falls amidst penetrates sun rays whisper happy love your oasis Dakhleh Ta-shema your disintegrate opening supplants that Lord of the Two Crowns!!!dance here this space betwixt two horizons

 

                           Of this Heseb Bull amidst this Lower Kingdom, your Sceptre name sings in this South, this Upper Kingdom, your life prime, four feet muzzle curve long ears square tail upright elegant attire headdress splendor, erupt this fleece paroxysm breaks up tetrahedron surveils Amun stands atop vulture hovers exalts

 

                                       Foul bellows torrent dispute betwixt these compthis happens here this oblivion casts awayanions, brothers, Thoth comes to this land of the middle, a ferocious bird commences with his servant, harpooner, priest of Edfu, hurls his rod at the quarrelsome one, unveils this dissimulation masking duplicity, a wallowing beast lulls these to sleep obscure 

 

                                                   Light penetrate seeks surmounting restoration amidst this somber villainy heinous murder patricide spills this royal blood defiles body sacred transgression evil demons exhale steam blood casts shadnothing sits there writes records anythingow across this Western clears this gold depthless mask

 

                                  Isis with vision divine opens aqueous hidden flow, stern wooden shelter seeks prays for breath, new life, resurrection, his bloodless body hungers, awakens from this bark sheltered tomb, inspires her soul, cheeks bellow 

 

                Deny redemption returns this fugitive son shatters paternal corpse scatters amidst land of darkness these fourteen pieces dismemberment entombing this one Osiris usurp eternity pestilent murky everlastingness hope conjures pardox unknown invisible revealsdespoils torture undying death

 

                                Gathers she assembles all sword ingest hand setting on lifeless shoulder smiles sky emergent intercede divinity deathborn Horus loyal son brother Isis conceives engenders Nephthys issues challenge launches assault this idiot laughs belches yell out where can i find some pussy     this sublime darkly man whispers look in that mirror avenges father coming forth by day eventful nightly trial chaos bubbles steams cracking surface

 

                                                Amun nourishes this Horus amidst suspensmaster rams hot poker up ass slave smileseful battle Falcon emerges triumphant  this blood red morning ashen glow lays gently across this infant blanket surge birds flows fly forth labours Nut announces bestows this triumph as this blue child ascends resurrection reborn purifies this pink rising sun Osiris

 

                           Fleeting tenuous victory again darkness descends engulfs swallows this blinding orb Seth shoots arrows bolts hurl foul emanations stand undaunted laden this gift his thunderbolt frightful across sky men women children fear him sufferenvisions alterity this instant looks away this dark everlasting incestuous battle shadow pale brief this hope morning relief stills heart 

 

               O children of these vanquished, you shall rise again scatter erase this domain exude violence shatter holy temples remove breath from animals sacred hardship arms unity dissemble casting blistering knives at gods fulfill prophesy bestow pretext this idol smiles

 

                                     Nut breathes release coalesce flesh gathers bone limbs, vaporize thisnever doing alterity just fantasizing this disintegrator, this war of the Unclean, Rise up O feeble one! Shine this mystery Resurrection, this daybreak festival enshrines this sarcophagus Osiris set up these columns build this shelter repose, O this house of Eternity!

 

                     Entangle Typhon persecute disperse evil one crush his moment make an end to failings remove defects savor this abundant necter behind this shrine, cry out in tearful joy, proclaim this eternal victory, these children of impotent revolt shall never again arise, commejust because these fit doesn't signal shitnce this festival shining dance beckon whispers

 

         Your tears O children silent fall upon no ears this eagle establishes his throne, your barren revolt, pale simulate attack wretched defile casts excrement upon mere image of eternity this day face of Horus, he, carry these testicles, sees concealed things this season of fire & night flaming strife everlasting 

 

                                           Seth, Lord of Terror, collaboratosplatters faces just take miss this chancer with these designs of Light against these his own, his children, sacrifices these, O traitorous storm fire blitz sky, O virulent punisher of vice, make ready this chopping block, these slaughterhouses, savor entrails, you devourer of mutilated things, guardian of darkness living in light

 

                     O Children your revolt wallows, you believe fictions transfix image hypnotic your enemy opposites reinforce opposites defile this attack harbors implicit affirmation of your target, what you sought to destroy brings only the satraverse mazes dance disciplines It scoresme, this god of two faces, laughs, plays you off each against this other, a cat plays prey, this silver cord ties it together unseen

 

         O Children of Seth, this illusory hostility betwixt light & darkness seduces your gift entrap adverse triumph victory clears nearness absorption stars never set dance amidst this temple of sand, if one does not believe, one does not defile, attain perspective, you, your god, displace, erase annihilation

orchestrates sanctity causes these to obey

                                          

                                           Two lands secure union inscribe anonymy sings forever ever evaporates anxious suspense fractures morning before dawn sun always dost shines still heart feather redeems all, eradicates this festival of fiends, happy victory, witness Seth beyond Acheron, silence silencer of mouths, smell fragrance, live joy!

        

      O decadent children, seduced via churning false belief, you shall never rise up again this day this night thrust together marriage shadow light ensues artful separasingular gaze this dance this chance openstion guise earth becomes light one virtual purity this evil one shelters still imprisons things, turns up earth in your blood, you migrate bestial, fiend, impish dissimulator, perverse light, O eternity, O Egypt!

 

.                      how did you like that one?

was it interesting useful for you was it incriminating for me

  are you watching me? why are you watching me? why do you continue to read if you wish to respect my sacred privacy?  Please stop, cease, desist, set this book down,

better yet, burn it!read this novel testament banal literature please............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

 

 

 

 

 

tension this bow harbours vast possibility

 

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this clown druels its vermin lust punishes

 

ust another       

 

            lie just like all these

 

 

      other lies

   vomit streaming

 

supple strange music perfumes songs dances

                                             out

 

                

                     this

 only

                       mouth

 this only mouth

 

            that counts                     this hungry  mouth

sucking power games mind control brainwash heavens

 

]b      bitint   biting  on        ears

 

   gnawing       coercing]

         saturatingt   

     stimul;ating       occuop occupy9ing 

 

                                occupying your head..................this mouth

                              you?????????????????terrorist priests prefer tragedy to comedy???

real thing

              i meow at this one walking by it stops turns its head listens for my next meow but after this it walks away in seeming indifference as if it knows i am

 simply wasting its precious time its only time now

         think devoid through net         categorical finitizing

                   accepting death           (forgetting again)

                                 given a priori

          corn cob banal chair druels: history a slaughterbench

           truth if there is no belief this is no seduction

    sucking blood from dead corpse whispers her hunger

                                                 it

          is           to

                         she leaves tomorrow i may never see her again yet possibility dances this eruption this joyous caress must not come to an end this dancing flux of chance is not entirely out of these hands or if it is may it shower gifts of delightful surprise it is not entirely out of my haenter holy of holies laugh laugh laughnds or hers this caress this joy must not come to an end must not close off 

              obliterate this future cultivate possibility discordant style conflict explosion incessantly shown those things no one reeally does anyway since it is all a script designed to enslave actors & spectators alike this dreadful implosion into this utter sameness enforces this separation continuous flow operation displays those faces which look so familar so much like you & me only to seduce crush destroy

   my your one & only chance to live this opening happens

   cult of youth qua engulfing suffocating vortex containment          listen to this shining sensual flickering light

    shocking eyes assertion rabid image foams spits up its undigested food into your lap all over your brand new ultra fashionable attire ... only yesterday trash street garb

        if she does not reach out amidst this last time of opening it would be one time which this type of assertion would not be missed

           yet this is not fathomed as this will break this thread this opening of chaotic discordthis which is here there everywhere without relief

              this feeling this web of tentacles once again descends amidst indeterminacy

                     yet it does not matter anyway in the least since these feelings are only determined by these special circumstances & will depart with a suitable absence

                  it is so strange how this rhythmic dance can transfigure from this to that

              nothing is over until it is thoroughly eradicated

    each thrives recurs eruption amorphous scintillations these paths this darkest night of blind passionate light

             it is only this way it is that way it is that that over there here this special web cracked to the core with no center but that which is movement amidst proximate surge                         at first drinking this bestows nausea but after a few doses it no longer makes ill as it numbs all of these primary defense loci out of control... blood sport semen goddess dance...

 see     

         this  

 

         death                                            as    

       a          problem   

                                      a problem you say 

what sort of problem is this that all around

                 how could one be so audacious idiotic foolish idealisticly insane as to challenge this certainty of death

                    it is everywhere these gods are laughing amidst this nebulous fractured dance this their sublime                    performance merce cunningham life forms enter exit

                  he was a he wished to bring to presence his most initmate desires fantasies

     but what about these gods?  don't these die?

               this woman wears this black dress approaches, asks quietly, when does a god die, where is this line, & what becomes of this god once it is dead?  what is this death? death? death?

      everything was accomplished except this joyous abandon

 a small child approaches this gathering, sets eyes down in modesty, assures, encourages these each their face eyes focus intently upon this little one, he begins, stutters, asks, could a dead god come back to life? 

    could this kind of death turn amidst life, is this part of this dice roll?     they are so insideously shallow with dollar signs in their vacant eyes joy she breathes closing eyes opening these slowly pales dark receptacles geometric tricks lick you you you until this wake of dawn please wipe yourself properly before you confront this world this is my only advice please listen....

               even this machine is effected by this suffocating humid hell his hair slicks back with his wince smile so sublime what a joy i love his no name face i will listen to it again for it pleases me so that is what he thought when he said thought on this outside.... it feels too good on this throat to give it up...     this woman in this black dress pursues her questions further, what is this difference between a death of a god, and that of a singular homo terra?  what does death mean for that which has no body?  in which ways does a god die?  and, what is done once this god has died?  is there some type of funerary practise associated with this event?  what is a god anyway?  is such a thing even conceivable, really?  what an utterly strange thought to think!

      he makes this sign of satan with both his hands this horned square snouted fanged face grunting out primal groaning moan with his tongue extended hanging down protrusion of slashing saliva drenched dripping saber lashing out this groan until the cops come tell him to shut his fuckin' mouth people are trying to sleep have to get up in the morning...

          a mad mortician begins ranting hysterically about this corpse this dead body which must be hygienicly eradicated for this sake of terrestrial viability cleansing sanitizing this space mopping up death enacting western death ritual land evening                    display corpse before death

      clean body suitably            decorate body

    display corpse               spectators bereave

       bring forth best face

                        remember

fine respect       beauty                           light

    busily run to fro              gather

together      break    apart    move about here there

   get ready         make ready       perform dance    death frenzy        hysteria         dance          entombs                          insignificance              non-existence

   entangls                        matrix                                         infinite surface

                    irretrievable origins

        cling torn threads               grasp hold seek way out look beyond              consoles nausea        fear isolatese               hopeless inevita encroach          absence eclipse carry self beyond realm        absent death       fiction

    one dies death              form liveg       no experience             death only ritual      prepares         this event dreads happen           forestalls occurrence       walk  path death towards death          live dead always

                                 already dead

     (be sure to wear clean underware or none at all!!!)

                                      body lies stiff

slant marble operates table

            concentrations blood pockets

 crimson milk congeals posterior back via gravity

       lips crack open     dry man wears apron approaches body        hose trickles mild stream water

                 bluish-white surface body

 clean body purify body hose

                set down man pick up razor blade encases holder slashes right side neck body

              inserts gloved fingers this hole isolates juggler primary artery tie it off small length white string

           slice opening down along artery

    fill up glass chamber green agent cleanses

together small concentration embalms fluid formaldehyde preserves       agent decomposition ensure annihilation remains body corpse            take hold tube emanates machine houses glass chamber

 insert nozzle tip hose slice open artery tie off secure seal        tubes turn machine pump contents glass chamber body corpse hole artery gash slash neck body expands cleanse agent intermix blood    nitros conjoin blood protein fix blood protein approach neck         green fluid fills body unties string withdraws nozzle tip hose absence constraint blood cleanser formaldehyde-protein complexes pulsate streaming out next down grooves slants marble table down                 drain out city sewer matrix

mixing acids breaking formaldehyde blood protein

            bond frees blood     ice cream for rats & bacilli

                         approach body corpse hose

     cleanse remains blood hang small drops

            reinsert nozzle turn machine fill body

     preserve contains pink color agent

              shape body before it becomes fixes  position embalms fluid laceration neck sewn thick thread

   hair head body wet combs back away      face cleanse

body transfer gurney move finish room

               makeup skin colors powder place skin life like preserve cleanses coat silicon spray cast across

    job there applies hair done curl blown dry under drier

  head body reclines chair curlers hair

 place table clothes put body bras underware dresses pants picture supplies legal representatives allow some approximation resemblance lip stick rouge body places coffin transport view room sterile space       walls cover flowers eerie organ music drones above people standing looking dead body comment how good it lookks

  it is clean pure its blood flows amidst this sewer system

 water proof tears slide off without stains

         ritual performs death

          endure spiritualize actualize perform

   always prepare for death await what will never come

        she who waits death ritual death blood sewers ruin precious open expanses land bodies dead raw material bounty nature god's gift lucrative commodity dead body

     vultures hover above watch live bodies fall prey contagions release upon living living infects

               they may be dead dead bodies bought sold  

   the idiot rejoins: it is phusis, it is life itself, it is this coming to be, ceasing to be, of all things, all life opens, becomes, ceases to be, intersperses, disperses, cast across vain winds throughout, amidst sending, this inexorable way our cross

[peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwww]

hey man     what are you????....!!!! .... the.. Pope....?/

                                   most certainly not.,,...

                    but you say it in your little words

words smell vomitous history you say cross without this banal laughter you admit stink stenches your sinister christian self

                  abasing draining viscous dirt gathering mucous

                            [individual] without an [individual]

          you are so arrogant in your presentation your own pretentious possibilities.... merely for you never had any hope outside your fetish of death your morbid will to command clipping wings turning laughter into sorrow joy into despair... just because you are sick... this is not everything.... one need not be pretentious to wish to love ... to dance on a sunset... to live on this earth..... this only life .... this only time....

                              your proclamations your regurgitated assertions your charges your threats brutalscape this manifestation your own fear this fear which renders you paralysed you slink along perpetuating your own ridiculous sickening lying absurd existence

                             it is simply impossible at this point to ever be totally honest with your self so you go on lying & lying & lying to yourself.....    you fool speaking of your assinine shit...  totally honest ... what does that even mean.... brainchild wind race dick fuck mud moss trees whirls aside toad dance rack climbs birds fly upside down bees hit the ground....

                    do not forget everyone else even if you tell this truth      lies proliferate relentlessly hopeless truth depicted evil.... evil whose evil whose evil i ask you ... one last time... tello me what the fuck you mean.... do not assume that everyone unde4rstands you.,... that you are plainly in sight... that all already know for you are held in such high esteem... you don't command shit anymore.... don't assume that your right & wrong traverse across space.... for many you are evil.... so get with the program... get a clue you sickening blind parasite...... mutherfucker....

      all this time saying doing portraying exhibiting performing these correct things                        but never saying anything              

                     certainly never questioning

                           anything at all you never say anything at all        you think i am relaying some kind of wisdom?

         it will probably eclipse to this wind these legs wrap around each she discloses her practices in such a matter of fact way what a relief that it does not matter at all will listen to it again for it pleases me waiting for this rewind in buzzing silence hearing this herd call of frat boys what a joy i hear this surge in music replicates shatters my face ears that seventeen year old menopause victim lashes her brainwashed terms in my face i could not breathe a more hideous death.... a heart attack??? well if it comes i would not be very suprised.......

                                 you cannot

                           that is your downfall 

                you portray vision profound escape

 rambler                      besides

it is

            only metaphor             hairy very hairy nuns

                            so i am an escapist

 one who wishes to jump out of these bounds of reality

  i threw it off the balcony of this house in order for it to be reunited physically with its site of emergence a nostalgic sentimental mystic thought it must have been dead for it did not drink much this access was gift