dream to see
dream to see
I looked in the mirror today
looked for hours, minutes, days..
the girl looking back at me, looked strange
the girl looking back at me...
So I cried..I cried for all the vanity in the world
I cried because I hated what I saw
I cried for my unability to change it...
I drowned in my tears last night,
fighting off the insanity
fighting the ever growing sickness that is myself....
I sometimes wonder
I sometimes wonder, does the world know
it's rotting from the inside?
Does it know when we inject it with poison?
I wonder sometimes if it
knows, if it feels. maybe that's
why volcanos suddenly erupt after
being dormant for thousand of years...
like the worlds rage just finally boiled
enough to do something about it...
and then it's like every trajedy is justified,
every storm, every disaster has the fury
of self justification, right on it's side.
Should we not suffer? Even now, we do things,
we know we will pay for in the end.
It's true humans are a disease.
We are the world's disease,
and we are our own disease.
I bet god looks at us
as his biggest failure...
but then, one shinning moment
comes through...an act of
pure kindness, pure love.
How is it, that we as
human beings can encompass
the most evil of things,
and yet the most beautiful??
Is it true to say, that
we aren't good or evil,
but good and evil.. all wrapped into one...
maybe he doesn't know what happened to us...
maybe it really was just all a big mistake...
an experiment gone wrong, but irreversible...
and maybe god doesn't exsist at all..
but I don't believe that,,,
I don't know what I believe half the time,
I just wonder..i wonder so manythings some times
I think my head is going to explode, like I know
that most humans can't possibly have this many
pointless thoughts bouncing around like I do....
I'm going to end this, before I get out of hand....
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